The Architecture of Méaux Sager

I don’t want to say goodbye 

I don’t want to let go 

I have this thing in my mind 

that I can never throw 

Because I fell really deep 

Because I fell in love with you. 

Meaux Sager 

Pure love come to me 

Pure love penetrate through my bale

Lift me high in the sky 

let my dreams come true 

Help me 

to help you..

You knew my love to you was true 

and you knew the pain that I went through 

Denial will not make me come back to you 

even though my heart adores you 

Your peace from within climbs me through 

but your refusal kills me too

The agony is caused because of me and you….

I’ve been robbed and I’ve truly sobbed 

my friend is gone and my soul is lost

he was cold and his speech was bold

I was the bait fro his love to come at bay

my buddy is gone far far away 

this time it’s true no games to play

my eyes are dry his smile is full 

my grief is huge his grief is gone

My wounds start to sore and my thoughts start to roll

It’s the end no time to go back 

I’ll breath the fear in and I’ll breath the fear out 

It feels surreal and it starts to pain 

but this pain I can dare

Reality hits and starts to modify the way you think.

Meaux Sager 

Don’t say you love me, you don’t even know me. If you ever knew me, I don’t think you’ll be able to love me. You love the picture you have of me, not me. Never me. So stop saying you love me. Because we both know it’s not true. The first time someone broke my heart.

“the day my world fell apart”

You sit aside and you think to yourself.
You listen to your inner child, and he saves yourself.
You look aside from the problems that you made from inside.
Guilt comes and kills you from inside.
Your tower of confidence crashes and burns to ashes.
Your still alive…
You look right and you look left no one’s around.
You inhale but it’s hard for you to exhale.
Your heart starts to cry.
You try to recall happiness but it’s easily occupied by sadness.
You have your faith and you hope someday will arrive and lift you up high.
You lose control and you start to drawn.
You call for help…but there’s no one around.
The battle ends and your sorrow extends.
You hold your head up high.
You have been told you will survive, but this time it broke something inside.

I wrote this poem when I was 12 years old and this is when the Meaux that I am today started to become. This is where it all started. Remember that scene from Eat Love Pray where Julia Roberts was on the bathroom floor crying her eyes out? I wrote this poem after a very similar scene LOL. It’s something in my past now I will never be ashamed of it. It made me who I am. So cheers to everyone that knew the answer to the “I was born this way” equation.

Xoxo
Méaux Méaux